dear love of my life,

   for you i will be a life long lover

   we don't need to understand what that means

   however

   it's hard out here

   these days

   (10/09/24 - 07:12am)

   the city starts to smell like winter

   (10/09/24 - 09:25am)

   furniture never listens

   while language is a performance

   a need

   a choice

   a game

   (something got lost here)

   (10/10/24 - 01:38pm)

   i want to do laundry

   but i only talk to you when i need something

   so 

   laundry

   (10/10/24 - 03:02pm)

   how do poets write

   so many poems

   my poems get decimated in the dishes

   the laundry  

   my sister is having another

   crisis the bed has to be made

   (10/11/24 - 03:34am)

   a check

   porn

   check, check 

  (10/12/24 - 04:21am)

   contains now 30

   good

   minutes

   (10/13/24 - 10:16am)

   thesis

   (10/14/24 - 02:03am)

   there is something 

   odd about

   this 

   paper linguistic 

   it's like table striptease

   (10/14/24 - 02:58am)

   i prepare for you    

   for november   

   with a playlist, a sofa, carpet, lamp

   (10/14/24 - 03:35am)

    one porn is saved in dropbox

    first 30 min 

    https://we.tl/t-azCN4FcXVD

    (10/15/24 - 03:02am)

     i wrote

     about the grandmother

     because not even within me 

     i can distinguish what's her naturell 

     (10/16/24 - 03:42pm)

     while searching for beckett poems

     (10/16/24 - 03:58pm)

     sound in the metal box of belas artes

    visited the professor as a daughter of steyerl and jankowski

    and had some thoughts

    (10/17/24 - 12:43pm)

    what if there is just a book 

    with not more than things of others

    (11/10/24) 

    had thought about buying another peacock

    what do we think of this? 

    (11/21/24)

  asked chat gbt
(12/15/24) 

before the russian left, she talked about the internet 
just so now it is a cable 

morse code matryoshka 
(12/25/24) 
I couldn't different than collecting
because there have been just so few words
letters for connection
so to say
(01/16/25)
question I carry:
do I really love the alter ego?
and what if I would need to give a name
(01/19/25)
the ladies court is something I highly appreciate
even though the catalog isn't properly represented
it's time that the russian comes back ---
(01/21/25)
deleted my song for it
so stupid
(01/22/25)
how many alter egos has an alter ego actually? 
(01/25/25 at 06:22an)
well days are passing and the world is just getting worse
hypernormalization at its finest
(02/01/25)
so there is like pro and con with flipping out
pro: its flipping out
con: its flipping out
(02/11/25)
it's sometimes unbearable to be in the same room as the world 
while I was runned by the sensation I was supposed to die
(02/14/25)
according to what is written there from yesterday I report that it is extraordinary strange to wake up when there was this certain level of logic
BUT I did. universe didn't take me. 
(02/15/25)
writing starts to make no fun anymore so I bought a typewriter
now it is fun again
(02/26/25)
the witch an me moved together
we have now a bathtub and a castle 
a better castle than the big one before, because this one is even more big
I start to be a maximalist, but in the room with balcony I live in is not more than the bed and the lamp. 
(03/08/25)
there is a bird living with me in the studio
(03/15/25)
dolly blockbuster decided to get an analog cooperative job, a real 9-5 experience, but only at home and only with the typewriter. 
just little to some weeks to play theater for the so far good new air
(03/17/25)
have been out on a dinner but with no dinner food and only occupying my time.
I need start applying for real things, which is something good to do from 9-5.
(03/22/25)